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Sagittarius Full Moon Reflections:
Rebel Without a Pause
by April Elliott Kent
Buckle
up, folks – it’s going to be a bumpy ride. This highly volatile
Full Moon period pits the Sun and Venus against the Moon
and Pluto, all in contentious aspect to combustible,
unpredictable Uranus. The Sun/Venus urge to make nice
is struggling against the Moon/Pluto compulsion to bluntly
testify to one’s convictions – and there stands rebellious
Uranus in the middle of it all, impatiently fingering a lighted
match and a stick of dynamite.
Uranus represents that prickly, independent spirit that hides
out in even the gentlest soul, lying in wait for those moments
when we need liberation from the dark cave of conformity.
Of course, like dynamite, it’s difficult to control – and
the destruction it leaves in its wake can get messy.
Recently I had a completely unnecessary and protracted argument
with a visitor to my website who made a comment that rubbed
me the wrong way. Now, after nine years of publishing online,
I’m pretty much used to commentary about how I should think/do
my job/live my life/write a sentence. And since most people
mean well, even if they express themselves badly, I normally
try to handle this kind of thing tactfully, kindly. Normally,
I would probably have just let this comment go.
But normally, I’m not being quite so closely chaperoned
by Uranus, the rebel planet: specifically, transiting
Uranus in opposition to my natal Mars. The hapless reader
caught me when I was in no mood for a lecture from a complete
stranger, and the ensuing exchange got pretty ugly. All of
the sudden, instead of tactfully ignoring unhelpful comments,
I find I simply can’t abide being told what to do;
I see red and begin pawing the ground. I’m like a rebellious
youth railing against Authority - "Don’t oppress me,
man!" I’m a bit taken aback by my own feistiness,
but as much as I’d like to say that I regret having gotten
nasty with that reader, in all honesty, I can’t.
Undoubtedly, it’s happier to go through life getting along
with people. But sometimes, maybe we have to get a little
crazy and rebellious in order to grow, facilitate change or
find solutions to tricky problems. For instance, I’ve been
struggling for awhile with a knotty website issue and this
week, someone offered me a solution that I knew wasn’t quite
right. But in the process of stubbornly working to disprove
his thesis ("Don’t tell me what to do, man!"),
I had a flash of inspiration that led to a completely unexpected
solution. Sometimes, sheer contrariness can lead you down
the path to inspiration.
But overwhelmingly, Uranus transits are – necessarily - uncomfortable.
I keep finding that I feel sort of emotionally itchy, like
a snake that’s outgrown its skin. That’s Uranus at work –
when you’ve painted yourself into an evolutionary corner,
it’s Uranus’ job to extract you from the situation by
making you uncomfortable enough to find a way out.
During this Full Moon season, as Uranus stands in
the wings with his explosives, I suspect you’ll find that
there’s some part of your life that makes you pretty itchy
as well – as though you’ve outgrown the skin you’re in. It’s
going to be a great couple of weeks for blowing open the windows
of your soul and speaking your truth – the Moon’s conjunction
to Pluto in opinionated Sagittarius will see to that. Along
the way, you may even find unexpected solutions to long-standing
problems. But it’s going to be an especially tricky couple
of weeks for situations requiring diplomacy – interviewing
for jobs, selling things to people, or backing down from an
argument.
So, what reptilian skin are you shedding? If your Monkey
Mind has done its job, you’ve caught glimpses of your
untethered Id in the impulsive, impolite truths you’ve blurted
out during this Mercury retrograde period, often at inopportune
moments. Those were moments when your truth bravely – if not
always prudently - darted past the gatekeeper of Sun/Venus
"niceness" and decorum. They’re the moments that,
if caught on YouTube, would surely guarantee you’d never win
elective office.
But they point to the truth of who you are, and that’s what
the combination of the Moon, Pluto, and Uranus is getting
at this Full Moon. After moving into Capricorn to great fanfare
in January, retrograde Pluto has slipped back into the last
degrees of Sagittarius for the next six months. Though we’ve
already spent thirteen long years in the University of Pluto
at Sagittarius, perhaps we have just a few credits left to
complete before we can finally graduate.
At the end of this long, Pluto in Sagittarius battle for
authenticity, take this Full Moon opportunity to ask: How
do you define yourself? What are your ethics, your core
values? What’s the nature of the fuel that propels your engine?
And when Uranus has done shaking off your skin, what will
be left in its place?